
(This is a merge of two separate images. I didn't even realize how well these images fit together until I was putting them together in a photo book.)
Here is an oddity for me. I was so excited over the sunsets I had seen on my trip to Petoskey that on my last day there, I woke up early before the sunrise and sat out on our little balcony and watched the sun rise over the little town of Petoskey. I am not a morning person for me to be up before 9am is a rare event. Before children I would typically start my day around 11am. I am a total night owl. I hate to go to bed for fear of missing out on something. What I am missing out on in my own living room I will never know. My mom says I was like this from birth. I never wanted to go to bed. My dad was working second shift when I was born (as he did most of my life), so he would do the night time feedings and such and keep me up for a few hours at night for quality time with him. I have been trying to go to bed earlier. This is in part because my husband has been basically working double shifts. He is working his night stocking job and then as soon as he gets home in the morning he turns around and goes to work with his dad in their construction business. I do miss him working his construction job but since business has been slow, we had to have another means of income. Although when he doesn't have to work both jobs, the morning is his quality time with his boys. He gets them up, fed and dressed most mornings. I am thankful for my husband although most of the time I'm not the best at showing my appreciation. I try to but most of the time my emotions and stress just seem to get in the way. One of the reasons that I am trying to go to bed earlier is so that I can try to get a better control of my stress and most of all my emotions. I know I am still battling a bit of the baby blues because unlike after having my first child I can't just pack everything up in a few minutes and take off to someone's house. Being that my second was born a mere twelve months and eleven days after my first it isn't always easy ohh and it was winter. It is starting to get easier to do this now but I still feel overwhelmed.
